Sometimes you aren't still in love with someone...you're in love with the memory of them. You might think you are.... BUT sometimes its the love that you once had for them. It most likely wouldn't be the same if it came around again...because people change, our hearts change, our lives change. It's hard to come to an understanding of that and seperate your feelings from the past and the present. Some people can't. This lyric say's it best to me, "can you hear it? A cry to be free! Oh i'm forever under lock and key." They can't let go...they just can't free themselves no matter how hard they try. (some say that time heals all...I don't always believe that.)
This song is perfect for sort of understanding that. I've loved it since High School. I still don't know how to let go of some of the memories of a couple people I loved...their "ghosts." Maybe we aren't meant to. I loved this one boy a handful of years back and he has never left me. I wish he would...I'm in love with his memory and if he knocked on my door now, it wouldn't be the same...or would it? I guess I'll never know.
(This is obviously my interpretation. That's the beauty of music...you get to interpretate it the way you see it or feel it.)
Ps. This is a living "ghost"...not a heavenly one. ;) Or actually It could be someone on the other side of the veil...I guess it's how YOU look at. :)
there's a letter on the desktop
that i dug out of a drawer
the last truce we ever came to
in our adolescent war
and i start to feel the fever
from the warm air through the screen
you come regular like seasons
shadowing my dreams
and the mississippi's mighty
but it starts in minnesota
at a place that you could walk across
with five steps down
and i guess that's how you started
like a pinprick to my heart
but at this point you rush right through me
and i start to drown
and there's not enough room
in this world for my pain
signals cross and love gets lost
and time passed makes it plain
of all my demon spirits
i need you the most
i'm in love with your ghost
i'm in love with your ghost
dark and dangerous like a secret
that gets whispered in a hush
(don't tell a soul)
when i wake the things i dreamt about you
last night make me blush
(don't tell a soul)
and you kiss me like a lover
then you sting me like a viper
i go follow to the river
play your memory like a piper
and i feel it like a sickness
how this love is killing me
i'd walk into the fingers
of your fire willingly
and dance the edge of sanity
i've never been this close
i'm in love with your ghost
unknowing captor
you never know how much you
pierce my spirit
but i can't touch you
can you hear it
a cry to be free
oh i'm forever under lock and key
as you pass through me
now i see your face before me
i would launch a thousand ships
to bring your heart back to my island
as the sand beneath me slips
as i burn up in your presence
and i know now how it feels
to be weakened like achilles
with you always at my heels
this bitter pill i swallow
is the silence that i keep
it poisons me i can't swim free
the river is too deep
though i'm baptized by your touch
i am no worse than most
in love with your ghost
you are shadowing my dreams
(in love with your ghost)
