Sunday, May 31, 2009


At first it felt like it just wasn't enough to quench the thirst of how the movie is going to turn out...I guess that's why they call it the teaser trailer. But it's looking good so far! Ahhh snap!




Okay, this is so worth listening to! My friend Wayne showed it to me last year and I have never forgotten it. (You'll see why) One minute I was laughing at how funny and kind of nerdy it was (The girl has a little bit of a lisp) and the next minute I actually teared up and thought how true it was/is. hahah It's great! Listen to it while your folding clothes or something. ;)

ps. You'll never look at Phil Collins the same again. ;)
pss. It takes a few minutes to least on my computer.
psss. It really gets going after the first girl Lauren talks. It's act one with "Starlee Kine's" story. :)

Saturday, May 30, 2009


I'm sad to say today that a great hero of mine, Truman G. Madsen, passed away from Cancer. Ironically, I was just listening to his tapes on Joseph Smith and taking notes today. He had a profound and poetic way of expressing himself and helped me to have a true and deep love for the Prophet Joseph. I was lucky to hear him speak two years ago at a fireside. I've been listening to his tapes for almost ten years. He will be missed.

"SALT LAKE CITY (AP) - Truman G. Madsen, a Mormon essayist, historian and philosopher, has died. He was 82.

Madsen died of cancer Thursday at his Provo home.

For 37 years Madsen was a teacher at Brigham Young University, where he held the Richard L. Evans Chair in Religious Studies. He also directed BYU's Jerusalem Center for Near Eastern Studies and sponsored several symposia at BYU on comparative religion.

Madsen was born Dec. 13, 1926, in Salt Lake City. He earned an undergraduate degree at the University of Utah and a doctorate at Harvard University.

Madsen is survived by his wife, four children, 14 grandchildren and 12 great-grandchildren."

Tuesday, May 26, 2009


...a healing balm. Gotta love 'em.


Today has been a difficult day. I spent the night very ill and finally went to sleep at 7am. As I awoke, it was like I was transported back to the pain I felt during ECT. It will be 3 years ago this July. It was the most grueling and painful time in my life so far. I realized today how much healing has come to me since then. It has been so slow and almost invisible...and yet Heavenly Father HAS been healing me. Maybe I needed to be remided of how much He is/has been doing for me. Especially because I have been feeling ungrateful and ignored by Him.

I have tried to be brave all day and work through this pain of remembering, but finally the tears that started to roll turned into great sobs. I never want my blog to be depressing to others and yet...I MUST speak up and share some of these things. I HAVE to continue to find a voice for those who are going through this painful disease. One of my greatest sorrows is that I'm not at a point where I can truly help people yet. When you are not healed can only offer what you have. I just hope sooo much that one day I really will be able to offer the love, compassion, and ANSWERS to help people endure, find a form of peace...and give them great and DEEP understanding about this. The reason I desire to do this is because it is very difficult for a person suffering depression to feel help from
God or others. Your mind is full of confusion and you only feel pain. It truly is only given to those of great strength, and by no means do I ever praise myself. But I could not have made it through such a trial had I not been given an inner strength that surpasses even my own understanding.

On Memorial Day I usually take at least one photo of a flower. Yesterday I didn't do anything but sit outside and read about Abraham Lincoln. The book is called "Lincoln's Melancholy" (How depression challenged a president and fueled his greatness) If you have never read the book, I recommend it. It is sooo inspiring. It has been highlighted, starred, marked and ready many times. Each time I am given the greatest love for this man. He suffered depression until his dieing day. But he fought the best fight, and look what he did for our country? Yesterday, I wanted to remember him and honor him. I hope in some small way, I did.

Last week I took this photo of a lone tulip. It stood out by itself with all it's own beauty and strength. This is how I feel aoout those who suffer from Depression. You may feel you stand alone, but you are rising to greatness! You are some of the most valient this world has EVER seen. You are beautiful and your day will come when the greatest of us all...will come to you, heal you and say the powerful words..."It is finished."

God bless all.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

*YOU'RE SO VAIN...* probably think this song is about you."

Today I watched Brad Pitt being interviewed on The Today Show as he was at the Cannes festival. All I can say is, Brad, get over yourself!!! Talk about arrogant. He is one dude in this world that I would love that red carpet to be pulled out from under him.

Check out these killer photoz of him in his PEACH suit! (gag) I think Carly Simon's lyrics fit him so appropriatley.

"You walked into the party
Like you were walking onto a yacht
Your hat strategically dipped below one eye
Your scarf it was apricot
You had one eye in the mirror
As you watched yourself gavotte"
hahhaha Here is a little Carly Simon to go along with these photoz. ;)

Thursday, May 14, 2009


I have become a complete addict to "Dancing with the stars." I have never been able to get into that show, but when I found out that Melissa Rycroft was going to be on it (after she got dumped on national television) I had to watch it and root for her. Now, I can't get enough of it. I have loved the whole cast! Here are just a few of my favorite things about this show/season,

1- Ty Pennington! That guy really did go from "Zero to Hero." He worked his ass off and it paid off! He is also so funny! I can't help but root for the underdog and I'm glad he made it as far as he did.

2- Derek Hough is one of the greatest choreographers I've ever seen. I'm not a Lil' Kim fan...but every week I couldn't wait to watch what he came up with. He's brilliant! Gilles doesn't give me fever like a lot of women in the world...but Derek did! Yow!

3- you love his sensitive nature or what? So many times he was teary eyed at the praise he was getting and I love that about him. He takes it so seriously and that makes him both fun & funny to watch.

4- The judges are great. Bruno is my favorite. That guy is hysterical!

5- Melissa and Tony are my favez! They have so much fun together and they are just stunning to watch. I think if she ever wanted to be a professional ballroom dancer, she could be in a heart beat. And Tony is just awesome! They are the couple I want to win! *Fingers crossed*


It was my loverz birthday yesterday and it would be wrong of me not to note it.
R-Pattz is smokin' hot.

Saturday, May 09, 2009


I was outside the pet store yesterday and saw this dog just hangin' out of his owners truck. His owner was not far from the car and I asked if I could snap a few shots of him. He said I could and then proudly told me the dogs name was "Danger" :)What a cute little guy! Not the dude, the dog. ;)

Friday, May 08, 2009


This is just the best! You will love it and it will make you smile. Thanks to my friend, Wayne, for sharing it with me. ;)